Letting go of the past and starting a new journey......

Good evening everyone.  I have missed ya'll.  Let me apologize now for my absence in blog land.  I feel as though I began this new blog and then left it!  That was not my intention, but life for me has been a bit crazy over the last month.  I have asked for prayer several times for my job situation and want to say thanks for all of your sweet comments and prayers.  Without prayer and all of my family and friends support, I would not have made it thru the last few weeks.  It has been so rough.
Let me give you a little background info to catch you up.  I went to work at a daycare here in our town nearly 6 years ago as a pre-k teacher.  It was my first teaching job and I LOVED it.  I fell in love with the little ones and put my whole heart into my teaching and into my classroom.  When Darbee Rae was born, I took a year off and stayed home with her.  When she was 9 months, I went back to work and went back there.  I was comfortable there and was able to work with the same T.A.  I worked two more years.  Near the end of that second year back an incident occured with Darbee Rae and her teacher.  Another teacher saw her grab Darbee by the shoulders and shake her while yelling at her to stop crying.  Can you imagine the hurt, guilt, rage, sadness, anger, helplessness that I felt?  My precious little one who was barely able to talk to me had this happen to her?  The teacher was fired and Darbee was moved to another room, but that wasn't enough.  I quit and stayed home another year.  I wasn't sure I would ever go back.  After thinking and praying long and hard about it, I decided to go back this year.  I knew the teacher for the 3/4 year old room and had heard so much good things about her.  They were all proven true.  Darbee Rae was very happy to go to school each day and has learned sooooo much.  We have had a great year.  She is so prepared to go into pre-k next year. 
Fast forward to a month ago.  My director called a meeting with the pre-k teachers and informed us that our center was being sold.  Things went downhill from there.  The environment there has been terrible.  The new owner wasn't greeted too nicely by my director making it very hard on everyone.  Darbee's teacher was accused by the new owners of stealing (when she was only packing up her own stuff). She quit last week leaving Darbee's class with a brand new teacher.  What did I do?  I panicked.  I cannot put her through the transition of a new teacher this late in the year and I am not willing to put myself as well as my hubby thru it again either.  The worry and wonder is not worth it.  The safety of my child is not worth it.  It has been such a mess. 
Fast forward again to this week.  I found out my director has been filling us full of lies for quite some time. She has nearly ruined our center.  It has gotten nasty to say the least.  News stations have been calling wanting to cover the story and everything.  My nerves have been shot.  I have not had the heart to do anything.  I knew something had to give. 
Hubby and I talked and prayed for the right decision to be made.  In the meantime, I was bringing Darbee to school with me and keeping her in my class.  I couldn't take her to the daycare.  I just couldn't do it.  We decided it was best if I got out.  I met with the new owner and explained my choice and worked a notice.  Friday was my last day and I couldn't be happier.  I am so relieved to be out of the stress. 
I am worried what might happen.  I am sure things will get much worse before they get better.  I just know I am happy to be out.
So...what to do now?  I plan on enjoying my time with my precious little one.  The clock is ticking away before she starts school.  It's hard to believe.  We will register her for pre-k next month.  I am going to enjoy these precious months before she too begins a new chapter of her life.  Mama, Darbee Rae and I are planning a girls trip to get away.  To celebrate.  To relax.  To shop.  I think I deserve it huh?  I am going to learn to do punchneedle.  I can't wait! 
Sorry this post is so long and hope I haven't bored you.  I promise to be more attentive to my blog and to get to know more of you!  I can't wait! 
Thanks to all of you for being patient and for your kind words.  I leave you with a few pics. of Darbee Rae during the few days she spent in my classroom.