February 11, 2012

Letting go of the past and starting a new journey......

Good evening everyone.  I have missed ya'll.  Let me apologize now for my absence in blog land.  I feel as though I began this new blog and then left it!  That was not my intention, but life for me has been a bit crazy over the last month.  I have asked for prayer several times for my job situation and want to say thanks for all of your sweet comments and prayers.  Without prayer and all of my family and friends support, I would not have made it thru the last few weeks.  It has been so rough.
Let me give you a little background info to catch you up.  I went to work at a daycare here in our town nearly 6 years ago as a pre-k teacher.  It was my first teaching job and I LOVED it.  I fell in love with the little ones and put my whole heart into my teaching and into my classroom.  When Darbee Rae was born, I took a year off and stayed home with her.  When she was 9 months, I went back to work and went back there.  I was comfortable there and was able to work with the same T.A.  I worked two more years.  Near the end of that second year back an incident occured with Darbee Rae and her teacher.  Another teacher saw her grab Darbee by the shoulders and shake her while yelling at her to stop crying.  Can you imagine the hurt, guilt, rage, sadness, anger, helplessness that I felt?  My precious little one who was barely able to talk to me had this happen to her?  The teacher was fired and Darbee was moved to another room, but that wasn't enough.  I quit and stayed home another year.  I wasn't sure I would ever go back.  After thinking and praying long and hard about it, I decided to go back this year.  I knew the teacher for the 3/4 year old room and had heard so much good things about her.  They were all proven true.  Darbee Rae was very happy to go to school each day and has learned sooooo much.  We have had a great year.  She is so prepared to go into pre-k next year. 
Fast forward to a month ago.  My director called a meeting with the pre-k teachers and informed us that our center was being sold.  Things went downhill from there.  The environment there has been terrible.  The new owner wasn't greeted too nicely by my director making it very hard on everyone.  Darbee's teacher was accused by the new owners of stealing (when she was only packing up her own stuff). She quit last week leaving Darbee's class with a brand new teacher.  What did I do?  I panicked.  I cannot put her through the transition of a new teacher this late in the year and I am not willing to put myself as well as my hubby thru it again either.  The worry and wonder is not worth it.  The safety of my child is not worth it.  It has been such a mess. 
Fast forward again to this week.  I found out my director has been filling us full of lies for quite some time. She has nearly ruined our center.  It has gotten nasty to say the least.  News stations have been calling wanting to cover the story and everything.  My nerves have been shot.  I have not had the heart to do anything.  I knew something had to give. 
Hubby and I talked and prayed for the right decision to be made.  In the meantime, I was bringing Darbee to school with me and keeping her in my class.  I couldn't take her to the daycare.  I just couldn't do it.  We decided it was best if I got out.  I met with the new owner and explained my choice and worked a notice.  Friday was my last day and I couldn't be happier.  I am so relieved to be out of the stress. 
I am worried what might happen.  I am sure things will get much worse before they get better.  I just know I am happy to be out.
So...what to do now?  I plan on enjoying my time with my precious little one.  The clock is ticking away before she starts school.  It's hard to believe.  We will register her for pre-k next month.  I am going to enjoy these precious months before she too begins a new chapter of her life.  Mama, Darbee Rae and I are planning a girls trip to get away.  To celebrate.  To relax.  To shop.  I think I deserve it huh?  I am going to learn to do punchneedle.  I can't wait! 
Sorry this post is so long and hope I haven't bored you.  I promise to be more attentive to my blog and to get to know more of you!  I can't wait! 
Thanks to all of you for being patient and for your kind words.  I leave you with a few pics. of Darbee Rae during the few days she spent in my classroom. 


  1. No one could be more proud to have you out of that situation than this Mama and Nana. God intended for a mother to be home and take care of her children. If you can do that financially, then that is where you should be. You don't have long,, enjoy the time with Darbee Rae. I teared up just reading that she will soon start a new journey of her own. Get Ready!! love all of you

  2. I agree with Mama/Nana...! You enjoy your time home with your Darbee:) God will lead you were you need to be. You'll be a blessing for many, your love for children and teaching will be rewarded. Hugs...K

  3. Bless your hearts, you have been through it. Just know you did the right thing for her welfare & yours. Enjoy the trip out, and just breathe the freedom of leaving that stress behind!

  4. Enjoy your time with Darbee. Time goes by so fast, slow down and smell the roses!!!! And have fun.

  5. Good you took the leap and got out before it got any worse.Enjoy your time and maybe after Darbee goes back to school something will come up for you.I;m going to start learnin punch needle too.Warm Blessings!~Amy

  6. Hi Holly,
    Sometimes we just have to do what is right for us...and it sounds to me like you did just that. Enjoy your time with Darbee Ray, because she will be grown within a blink of the eye.
    Have fun on your get away trip!!

  7. Well, sometimes there is more important things than money and that might not even be an issue for you but it was for me. I had 4 little ones and tried to work when 2 of them became preteens. It didn't work. So enjoy this time because you would not believe how it will pass by. And on the other note, I am glad you got out when you did. God bless you for being a great Mommy.

  8. Holly. Children and family are the most important things in life. Glad you got out of bad situation. Enjoy the rest of the time you have with her before pre-k. Have a great time on your trip.

  9. Ah yes, I worked daycare and went through a buyout so I know exactly what you are talking about. Let's hope that things do get better there before they get worse! You did the right thing for you, your husband, and for Darbee. That's not a situation you want to be in any longer.

    Enjoy your time off. Especially enjoy these next few months before Darbee starts Pre-K. I was able to quit work and spend that year with my little guy before he started and I am SO glad that I was able too. You will be thankful that you did!

    Now relax and enjoy your girls trip, sounds like TONS of fun!!

  10. I also agree with your mama Holly. Stay home with little Darbee while you can..they grow up so fast. Take care, Janice